Maybe I Just Need to Breathe

I feel completely and utterly disorganized lately. The house feels like a total mess, and my closets need to be completely emptied and sorted through. I have a mental To Do list that I can never seem to get on top of.

I am a list maker by nature. If I don’t have a list, it seems that I cannot act. At home, my list-making notebook has disappeared, so no lists are currently being made, and nothing is getting done. I will have to add buying a new notebook or maybe a whiteboard to my mental list of things to do (that never get done). You can see my problem.

Earlier this week I wanted to bring a different pair of shoes into the office, but I couldn’t find them anywhere, even though I have a very specific place where I keep my shoes. I also haven’t been able to find my black dressy purse anywhere for about a year. Perhaps it’s buried in my closet, or maybe I even left it behind the last time I used it.

On Monday I bought myself a Second Cup gift card so that I wouldn’t have to dig around in my purse for money each morning to feed my caffeine addiction. I put the card in an easily accessible pocket of my bag, and now it is no longer there. I must have moved it when I was heading out for a coffee, but where on earth did I put it?

Other things on my list of things to do:

1. I need to dig out health insurance information so that I can make some claims.
2. I have RSP banking to do that I have been putting off for a year
3. I have doctor’s and physiotherapy appointments to make
4. I bought Vitamin D supplements on the advice of my doctor about a month ago and I have only remembered to take them one time (twice – I just took one!)
5. Today I brought all of my running clothes so that I could go run on the treadmill at lunch. EXCEPT my iPod. I can run outdoors without music but there is no way that I can stare at empty space for half an hour without it
6. I owe approximately 45 people dinner invitations
7. The entire contents of my basement were loaded into a storage container before we started renovating, and it all still needs sorting because we were in too much of a rush to do it at the time.
8. Order yet another Epi-Pen for N (really does she need one in the school office, one in her after school program [in same school] , and one on her person?)

So, do I need a professional organizer, or do I just need to get moving and get it all together? Am I motivated enough to take some time out of my precious winter Saturdays to tackle this?

I’m asking, but I really do know what the solution is. I need to break it down into bite-sized chunks that are manageable and not overwhelming, and tackle them bit by bit. The part I haven’t figured out yet is why I have such a hard time getting going. The only good news here is that I have now written down my mental list so that you can all judge me encourage me.

About Finola

I am an Ottawa area Mom, writer-want-to-be and coffee legend in the making.
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5 Responses to Maybe I Just Need to Breathe

  1. gryph says:

    Are your shoes still in your travelling bag? Perhaps you have gremlins. But at least they steal both shoes at the same time. It would be way more evil if they only stole ONE shoe.

  2. Finola says:

    Nope, not in the travelling bag. Where shall I look next??

  3. XUP says:

    I think someone in your home is moving and/or stealing your stuff deliberately in order to make you think you're crazy. I saw it on a movie once. Eventually the woman starts believing that she's crazy and starts hacking her family to bits with an ax. You might want to show this movie to your family.

  4. Finola says:

    Xup – Funny! And now my husband might finally admit the truth….or else I'm just disorganized. It's difficult to tell some days.

  5. gryph says:

    Hmm… If I were a gremlin, I would probably toss the shoes in a disorganized way into the back of a closet near the boots, so they would be nearly unidentifiable from the odd angle they fell at, and they'd be hidden amongst different types of footwear where they don't usually hang out. Or I'd use them in my plot to gain masses of gold and thereby take over the world. Maybe check the closet first. 😉

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