I have been thinking about blogs and blogging for well over a year now. I have gradually built up my daily blog roll that I read every day. I had often wondered if this was something that I could do too, but I just couldn’t think of an angle. Did I have anything to say that others are not already saying more eloquently and with more humour? So I left it, but it was always in the back of my mind and it just wouldn’t go away.
In the early fall I bumped into a lovely neighbour of mine who works in the media. I found myself spilling too much about myself, about how I might have gone down the wrong road career-wise, and how I wondered if I could incorporate writing into my world without heading back to do four more years of school. My very kind neighbour followed up with me about this, and we met for a coffee one morning. One of the first things she said to me was “I think you should start a blog.” There it was again. She had researched and printed information for me and she had smart ideas about what my subject could be: a children’s science website. My background is science, I have children, and it made perfect sense.
I thought about this idea for a few more months, but I just couldn’t get excited about it, even though it was exactly the type of blog that had the potential to work for me. And no one else seemed to be writing about that, at least not here in Ottawa. After mulling and pondering and mulling some more, I decided the science website wasn’t for me. I think there are two main reasons for this: First is that while I do get excited about the biological sciences, there are a lot of physics-y and engineer-y topics that I just cannot get into. Second is that I have never seen myself as an educator. I am not the one to get a crowd of children excited about a topic. I am overwhelmed in the classroom setting, and I don’t think I can communicate effectively to kids.
So what could I write about? There are many bloggers out there and I wondered if there was any way that I could write a blog that would have any meaning. Working parenthood, fitness, and family life were all thoughts that kept coming back to me and these are the things I know. So today on the treadmill, I finally decided I will just jump in and write, and then believe that this will evolve or not evolve, grow or fade. If I never put anything into words, then I will always wonder if I could do this.
So here I go, with a lack of clarity and focus, but with a lot of thoughts swirling in my head. If only they would come out on this page as clearly as they did in my head this morning during my workout.
I just hope that I have something to say.